I have to say I don’t think I have ever thought about having a relationship with sleep. It never occured to me to think about it in that way. This question has me thinking.

I can't think about sleeping without dreaming... Generally speaking, I dream a lot. Quite often, I will have 3 or 4 dreams in a night, mostly they are vivid, in full colour and very detailed. I have written them down in the past, because that was what I needed to do at the time, but after several large binders full of notes, I stopped. Lately though, I find myself getting back to recording the dreams, not to analyze them, but to just help with remembering. This morning I woke up from another night of vivid dreams and once again I was thinking about the why’s and how come’s of my sleeping habits.

I have periods of not sleeping, which is frustrating in some cases and happens for many reasons or none at all. I have periods when all I seem to want to do is sleep. I have periods of sleeping and having unusually high numbers of dreams that cause me to wake up feeling tired and like I haven’t slept for days I really try to not judge when any of it happens. If I have a period of many dreams, or a period of wakeful nights – it’s ok. It is most rare to have a period of no dreams… I can count the times it has happened on one hand and one finger. But even then, there is no point in getting excited about any of it.

Confronted (in the nicest way of course) this morning with the question of what my relationship is with sleep… I don’t know how to explain it. Tumultuous and unpredictable is one way to describe the relationship. I do love sleep. I love it as much as I love being awake. I can also say that the relationship is occasionally bewildering. In the end, I couldn’t live without it, or the dreams for that matter. Sleep is perfect when it come, and is just enough for me.
 
xo
la

This is what I am sure of... 

oh, and love. I am sure of Love.

:-)


xo
la

Socks. I think they are plotting to take over the world...